I just checked and there’s technically another month of summer. But it doesn’t feel that way. This summer for me was about two huge events that took up plenty of time. One was prepping for a very difficult Kenpo test. The other was my duties as Associate Producer in charge of community outreach for the Sacred Fools 17th Season Launch Party: CAUGHT DARKLY DREAMING. In between those two events, I bounced back and forth between two writing projects I’ve been developing. It sounds manageable and I guess it was, but man, I’m glad it’s all over.
The day of my Kenpo test, my fiance Jen and I took our beloved cat Owen in for surgery. He had cancer in his leg and the best way to ensure him a good shot of survival was to amputate it. So we dropped Owen at the animal hospital. He has a heart condition, too, so any procedure is stressul for us. This one? Lots of crying.
That night, I went in for my test. Suffice to say, I got my ass kicked. But I faced it like a warrior, which is the point. Afterwards, the weight of the test and Owen’s procedure hit me like a ton of bricks. More crying.
Owen came through just fine, but his recovery was pretty stressful for us. Just as he turned a corner for the better, we woke up one morning and found that our littlest kitty Dia had snuck over the wall first thing and been killed by a coyote.
Shattering grief. Weeping. It was terrible. Still terrible. It if wasn’t for the outpouring of love and support from our friends and family, I don’t know what we would’ve done.
A week later, this past Saturday, was the launch party at Sacred Fools. There were plenty of people who worked much harder than I had to, but for me, It was exhausting because I had to put mental energy towards it when all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball for a while and hide in our house. But the party was a rip-roaring success, an endless night of fun, dancing, art, games, food, all of it raising money for a fantastic theater company that I’m proud to call home.
And now, for me, summer’s at an end. The test is behind me. The party’s a wrap. Owen’s on the mend. We are still grieving for poor Dia and always will.
Now I’m looking ahead at the last few months of the year. Some dear friends are getting married. We’ll be doing a short trip with some family. Then the holidays are here. This is usually the time when I buckle down and get very focused on the work I’d like to finish before the year’s up. And this one’s no exception. Except now there’s this sense of relief. It was a heavy summer.
Jen, Owen, our other cat Luna, our lovely home, our amazing friends and family — there’s so much to be grateful for. Yes, there is grief and exhaustion of the soul. But summer’s over and there’s work to be done.
Time to get started.